--Updated 3/1/2014 with better photos.--
This painting has taken me nearly three months to complete.
The first month and a half was spent planning it.
Its origins are in Leonie Dawson's Creative Goddess E-Course.
Leonie had us recollect a deeply healing moment in our lives.
I thought back to when I'd visited a sacred Spring in North Florida with my husband and his parents. That place just felt healing... just being near the water, hearing it, sensing it. I waded in, accompanied by fish and manatees, as well as mossy stones and, according to the signs, the occasional gator!
On our way home, I fell asleep in the back of the car. The sun was setting and I had an almost lucid dream that I was in a healing vessel, bathed in sunlight and spring water.
This is what I wanted to capture in my healing painting.
When I was a teenager I developed an interest in Buddhism, thanks in part to a former sculpture teacher who was enamored with Alan Watts. This led to me collecting Buddhist art in my early twenties, including this photo (pictured here in my North Carolina apartment).
I'm no longer interested in Buddhism, and so I put this canvas away when we arrived in New York, intending to donate it somewhere some other time. (I actually did hang it, but it didn't last five minutes. It felt all wrong.)
I finally got the idea to paint over this canvas! This photograph began to represent a lot of things in my past that no longer fit me. So to paint something deep and meaningful over it became a symbolic act in and of itself.
It's so difficult to capture a painting with a point-and-shoot. The colors are either too warm or cold, and the details get so muddled. Nevertheless...
See the difference in these colors between these photos... one is taken in evening light, the other, morning light.
This was, as you can imagine, a deeply emotional painting. I had vivid dreams around it, and I cried the whole time I painted the mountains. I don't understand it completely, but I suspect meaning will come in due time... and I also know mystery is healthy, too.